I have been clearing out a cupboard full of old notebooks and found a half written poem so thought I would have a play around with it and share it with you all. So, here it is!
So much time has past
But still those memories last
There are secrets I haven’t told
About the reasons I could be so cold
I cover it up with a smile
And shrug it off for a while
You’ve got a hold on me
And no one else can see
You’re turning me into a person I don’t want to be
Everytime you ignore my innocent plea
I whisper ‘not again, not today’
But you tell me I don’t mean the things I say
I imagine the day when everyone finds out
Will they believe me or will there be doubt
I’m just a child who can’t behave
It’s just an excuse – is what they’ll say
He’s a man in a suit
With an office and a long commute
A good reputation, a real family man
But thats all just a part of his plan
The man in a suit is really something else
Who is slowly damaging my mental health
The doctor is trying to force pills down my throat
But its on my innocent tears that I choke
I haven’t slept in days
I’ve been walking around in a zombie like haze
I’m told to talk about how I feel
But I’m scared I’ll be told its not valid or real
Fast forward a number of years
And still there are some tears
But I no longer have so many fears
My greatest secret is out in the open
I no longer see myself as a child who is broken
There are still stories left unspoken
And I’m still learning how to feel all my emotions
But now the doctor doesn’t try and feed me different pills and potions
They’re finally listening to what I have to say
And now I live more than just day to day
The ghist of the man in the suit will always haunt me
I saw things a little girl wasn’t supposed to see
But now I am a woman who is taking life on
I know I don’t always have to be strong
I’ve fallen many times, but stood up even more
I know the signs not to ignore
I’m enjoying life and the things it sends my way
I can finally confidently say
On this planet is where I want to say
Stacey Lipowski 